Well, today was a little better. Rob and I are on talking terms, but there is still a lot of tension between us. I think that I have pretty much decided to tell him that it is time for me to back away from the whole situation and for us both to figure things out on our own. We are both at different stages of our lives and he doesn't need one more thing to worry about right now. Besides, I have to figure out what God wants for me...not what I want for me! (I know I am repeating myself from yesterday, but this is something I have to remind myself of often!)

Anyway, enough about Rob and the drama in my life!

I got to talk to a really good friend of mine tonight. I haven't talked to him in awhile and I definitely missed our conversations. He and I always have the most wonderful, God filled, and lengthly conversations. This boy and I stayed up until 8:00 in the morning one time when I lived in OKC. It was a blast!!

He always helps me clear my head and refocus on what is important...God! He is going to do such great things for the Lord! His heart is so pure and so filled with a desire to do nothing outside of God's will. He never plans...just waits. I learn so much from him every time we talk. I thank God for people like him in my life.

Well, I'm off to bed! Goodnight!

YAY!!! LJ IS PREGNANT!!!!! WOOHOO!!!! :) I love you sister!

Well, this past week and weekend can be summed up in one word...DRAMA! My goodness...

I must be the type of person that just attracts drama. No matter what I do or who I hang out with...there it is...following me like some little annoying fly...ugh!

So, you wonder what kind of drama is occuring in Denver, CO? I'll tell you! First, things at work couldn't be more political, but where is it not, and it seems that I have signed myself up for more than I can handle. Actually, it's more like they have assigned me more than I can handle. Oh well, I guess I just have to make the best of what I've got and let them know that I am just one person...not an entire department!

Second, my personal life. Now, I know this is a favorite subject of everyone's since my personal life always seems to get screwed up somehow. Well, this weekend the timeline went something like this...

Friday: Rob and Jana Kay get in a huge fight and decide to go their separate ways.
Saturday: Jana Kay goes to the first swim meet of the season anyway to support the swimmers.
All the swimmers want to know why she is sitting in the stands and not on the deck
like all the other coaches.
Rob and Jana Kay talk after the meet is over and Jana Kay surprisingly keeps her cool
and doesn't yell at Rob.
Sunday: Jana Kay returns to the meet and sits on deck with the swimmers and is able to coach.

Happy ending...sort of...

Jana Kay is still rethinking her commitment to the team and how much time that requires around Rob. Jana Kay is thinking it is time to step back and think about her own life and where God wants her to go and what His purpose for her is.

So, after all that, I am taking time to listen to God and find out what exactly His purpose is for me. I am being pulled in several different directions and I am having a hard time even forming a complete thought. I feel like my world is spinning so fast that I can't even open my eyes to get an idea of what is happening around me.

Just pray for me! Love you all!! :)

My home phone isn't working right now...use my cell!! :)

This is my first post in awhile, and I do apologize! My life has been...well, my life!

Since the last time I posted an entry on here I can't really say that I have done a whole lot, but I have been busy and couldn't tell you exactly why. It has been several of those kind of days!

Right now, I am faced with a huge decision. It is a career decision, so please be praying for me. For those of my sisters I have not talked to yet...just wait, I'm calling this week (you too Dadda)! :) Just pray that you will be open to what is said and that I in turn will be open to what you have to say about the choices.

I am so completely drained of all brain power and energy right now. I have several little projects going at work and then the personal life added to that never makes it easier! I am having fun though. I am finding time to have a social life and branch out! Yes, I actually have a life!! :)

It is sleepy time now as I have to get up early in the morning for a presentation at work.

Love you all and kisses to everyone! :)